Trying to Remain Optimistic

Yesterday morning was retrieval day. For those of you unfamiliar with the process, it is done under general anesthesia (i.e., I’m asleep), and the doctor uses a needle, guided by ultrasound, to puncture each follicle with the hopes of aspirating an egg out. In the end, the doctor was able to retrieve 6 eggs.  Although that sounds like a great number, the natural attrition rate that they will go through left me in a very sad mood.  When we got back to the house, I was still groggy from the anesthesia and spent most of the day sleeping on the couch.

This morning, we got a phone call from the lab letting us know that only 2 (!!) of our eggs actually fertilized properly. There is a third one that was maturing a bit slower than the rest. They were going to try fertilizing that one today in the hopes that we’d have 3. However, they still have to grow this whole week before reaching the phase where they can be tested for chromosomal abnormalities and there is almost always some sort of attrition that takes place. I’m so incredibly sad and disappointed.

The phrase that keeps being mentioned to us is “It only takes one!”….which is great if we only wanted one child.  But we don’t. And although it only takes one embryo to get pregnant, it is going to be even more difficult to get pregnant two years from now with my (apparently) non-agreeable eggs.

I was really hoping for a miracle call this morning — one where the lab called and said that all six eggs fertilized and were looking good.  I feel like we are in the same boat that we were in last June (4 eggs retrieved back then and only 2 that fertilized normally).

Please keep us in your thoughts. We’ve been told by so many people that we’d make great parents. Now God and these little embryos need to get on board so that it can happen.

If we can’t get pregnant with our own eggs, we are open to adoption, too. We have a friend here in Kansas that was very lucky in adopting newborn twin boys via private adoption without the use of an adoption agency. It is definitely something we need to do a little more research on.

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