Our society is not conducive to waiting. Do you need to know the hours at the local pizza joint? How about what time it is in Berlin? The weather in Anchorage? Who won the world series in 1994? (Ha! No one! It was cancelled for only the second time in the history of the league thanks to a players strike.). All of the answers to these questions can be given to you in a matter of seconds thanks to the little wonder-machines that we keep in our pockets. The world is literally at your fingertips.
The one thing that the internet can’t tell you, though, is if you are pregnant. That, my dear, is something that humans still have control of. Sure, we can find out fairly quickly after conception occurs thanks to home pregnancy tests, but definitely not in the amount of time that it takes to discover that 8 of the 10 highest peaks of the world can be found in Nepal.
On Wednesday morning, five days after our embryo transfer, Mariya woke up from a pretty vivid dream. In it, she said that we had 16-year old twins — a boy and a girl — and that she was talking to them about something that they had done wrong. Mariya has crazy dreams all the time that are very vivid. In fact, former co-workers can attest to the fact that there was a period in time where I received phone calls each morning when I arrived to work (once Mariya had woken up), just to confirm that “yes, we are still married…..yes, I still love you…….yes, that was all a dream.”
Mariya’s dream on Tuesday night was vivid enough that she told me to get out of bed and go take an at-home pregnancy test that we had bought earlier in the week. Our official blood test wasn’t scheduled for another four days, so the chances of getting a positive test this early were pretty slim. But, I went into the bathroom — messy hair, morning breath, stiff from sleeping, in my pajamas — and peed. I turned the test upside down to give it some time to work, and both of us continued to wake up and get ready for our day. Our movers were scheduled to arrive shortly to start packing our items for our big move to Korea and so the day was going to be a busy one.
After a few minutes, we looked at each other, flipped the test, and saw:
………..”do you see what I see?”……….
We kept looking at each other, looking at the test, and looking back at each other — in awe that there was a smidgen of a second line.
“OMG…….babe, IT WORKED,” I screamed, before hugging her tight and bursting into tears. I was a blubbering mess for a good ten minutes, repeating over and over again “it worked………oh my God, it worked……..”
At the time, the only people that were around to share the news with, were our movers that arrived an hour later. Despite having only met us that morning, they shared in our joy — as evidenced by a little heart that we found on a box they had packed later that night 🙂
We wanted to shout the news from the rooftops! OMG, we are having a BABY! At the time, the only folks that we told were our siblings and a few close friends that have been sharing this journey with us. As the week progressed, our daily tests got stronger and stronger:
Finally, Sunday rolled around — the day of our “official” test. By this point, I would have been shocked if the result was negative. I had taken multiple tests at home and, unless I had the bad luck of purchasing four faulty pregnancy tests at CVS, I was convinced that we’d be getting a good call later in the day from our doctor’s office.
We went about our afternoon, packing up things for our flight to Korea, and waiting……….
Finally, around lunchtime, our nurse called. A good result at this point was and HCG level over 50. Ours came back at 186! We were officially pregnant!!! We hopped on Facebook, told our extended group of friends/family and then went right back to packing.
(Yes, anticlimactic, but it needed to be done!)
So there we have it! WE are going to be moms! Heck, we are going to be awesome moms, if I must say so myself. After decades of practice with nieces, nephews, cousins, and friends, we are ready for this!
Thanks, again, for following along. Our journey is far from over, and we plan on continuing to write in this journal so that you can be with us every step of the way. The next big things on our calendar are more labs tomorrow (to make sure that my pregnancy hormones are continuing to increase), and our first ultrasound somewhere around July 12th. It is at that point that we will know what happened to both of our embryos. We know for sure that at least one decided to burrow in for the long haul. Who knows if the second one did, too! Stay tuned — I’m sure that this pregnancy journey will be exciting — especially as we travel to the other side of the world!
******Some folks might be hesitant to share positive news early on in their pregnancy, for fear of a miscarriage or loss. In my eyes, that is the exact reason why you would want to share the news. God forbid something goes wrong, I would want my friends and family knowing what I was experiencing. If nothing else, this journey has taught me that infertility, miscarriage, and heartache are more common than any of us think. I can’t tell you how many private messages I’ve received over the past few months from friends sharing with me just how widespread infertility is. One thing is for certain, you are never alone on this journey. Look to your left and look to your right. I’m nearly positive that one of your sister-friends is going through the same thing as you.********